I was looking through some old pictures or drawings and I got very emotional during that time. I wanted to dedicate this journal to my friends, anyone who has wonderful people in their life, and people struggling to keep them. Now, I don't always like to share my true feeling, but I think that it's time to share how I feel about friendship. It's not just friendship, but it's also appreciation for these people. In this entry, I will not say any names or he/she. I'm going to be specific, but not too specific and I hope that's ok because a lot of what I learned came from personal experience. Like I said before, this is advice, experience, and appreciation for all of my friends in my life.
Growing up wasn't the easiest thing for me and I never told people some of my experiences. My very first real friend came into my life when I was 10 years old, in Hawaii. This particular friend was shy at first, but as time went on we got to know each other better. My friend was always there for me, the good, the bad, and the fun times. We have been friends for 6-7 years now.That is pretty amazing, but it was difficult to keep our friendship together. I thought I had to say goodbye to this friend when I moved to Japan 3 years ago, but I was wrong.
This friend also moved to Japan, which was pretty cool because I wasn't alone. Our friendship started to fall apart when I started dating. My friend didn't like the idea of me dating guys and I wasn't entirely sure why, but it really bothered me. We would argue almost everyday and every time it ended, I would feel terrible. My friend stopped talking to me for a while, but was still looking out for me. My first boyfriend broke up with me on Halloween and I became depressed for weeks. My friend saw how depressed I was and tried to cheer me up by just holding me and just saying "I'm here."
Just hearing those words made me want to cry. I felt like such an idiot for not listening to my friend and I apologized for days. We decided to patch things up and we started talking again, but later I started dating again. My last boyfriend was terrible and was never really there for me, but my friend was. We went on a trip to Mt. Fuji and it was a school field trip. I never told this to anyone or even wrote this in my journal online and offline, but I'm sorry I never shared this part with any of friends. I was pretty nervous about going zip lining, but my friend was quiet and gave a reassuring smile to let me know that things would be ok.
I was climbing to the top of the tree and this was a huge tree. I was about to grab the rope at the top, but I lost my grip and fell. As I was falling, I remembered the instructor say that the safety rope would catch me midway through the fall, but you know what it didn't. I was screaming at the top of my lungs and next thing I know, my friend catches me. I never felt so relieved in my life and my friend encouraged me to climb the tree again, so I did. I made it safely to the top with minor rope burns on my legs, but my muscles were sore and stiff. I'm lucky to get out of there with no broken bones and I have my friend to thank for that.
I even went through surgery to get 6 teeth removed. I was terrified and nervous, but my friend was there comfort me when my ex boyfriend couldn't. They gave me so much medicine that I thought I wasn't going to make it. As I'm lying in bed after surgery, my friend was these watching me to make sure nothing horrible happened. I couldn't focus and talk or even stay awake. Even when my face got swollen and bruised, my friend didn't even make jokes about me. That's a pretty good friend to me.
I appreciated everything that friend did for me I made many friends in Hawaii, but this particular one stuck out the most. I made another friend in Hawaii, but sadly that friend passed on. This friend was also with me through the rough times and the good times. This friend was very memorable and had tons of courage. This person also saved my life and watches over me. I never got to tell this person how much they meant to me.
This person was always there to cheer me up on gloomy days, no matter how bad they were. This person also came with me to Japan, but didn't stay for long. I never got the chance to thank this friend for saving me and I wish I could tell my friend now. I want to share this experience and this happened a year after. You do not have to believe me, but just keep an open mind.
I was in Chicago for two weeks. I on my way back to my hotel and feeling sad, even lonely. As I'm walking to my car, I heard someone yell my name and I turned around, but nobody was there. I got nervous and I was also confused. I was looking out of my window and I saw my friend's ghost standing at the doors of a church. My friend had messy hair and was wearing a dark blue shirt, black pants, with a black choker (it's like a necklace). I was speechless and I knew all the churches were closed.
My friend was smiling at me and I haven't seen that in a year. I saw my friend 3 more time before I left Chicago and it was at the same church. I know it was a spirit because it faded once I got a good look. My sadness and loneliness went away, but I knew my friend was watching over me. I'm very grateful to have a friend like that who, even after passing, will always be there for me.
I made lots of good friends in Japan. I think of them as my part of my family and I love them so much. We keep in touch and they've been with me thorugh everything. We never argued, but we did disagree a few times. I hope to see them again in the future. I learned so much from them and now I'm not afraid to show them who I really am.
The lesson I have here is to appreciate everything your friends do, whether you appreciate them or not. Your friends will love you for who you are and they don't care what other people will think. Spend every opportunity you get with them. I know I didn't get to spend a lot of time with some of mine. I love all of them and respect their decisions. That's a good one. Respect their decisions and take their advice. I wish I could have done that better. I hope you all got something out of this and I will see you all later.
Listening to: My OCD by Rhett & Link
Reading: The Last Lecture